This isn't good
I'm nearing the end of a maddening rehearsal schedule for a musical I agreed to participate in. Monday through Friday, my schedule is basically work until 5, rehearsal at 6, home after 10pm. I see my kids maybe 30-60 minutes a day, and a few hours on Sat. and Sun.
Now, when I tell my son "I love you" he responds "Don't go, Daddy."
I will now rip my own heart out.
This is the most heartwrenching thing I have ever experienced with my children. Priding myself on being a father who is actively involved in their lives, trying to overcome my own selfish desires to place their needs and even wants ahead of my own.
I'm really enjoying my time and involvement in this production, but I'm starting to question the wisdom of chasing my own dreams at my stage in life, and seeing character qualities in myself that I'm not too crazy about and need to change.
Sorry to be all heavy today...it's cathartic to vent sometimes.
posted by Dale @ 9:55 AM
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You're a good man John Dale. Thanks for opening up a bit and sharing a bit of honesty. I think if all parents shared in your desire to put their children first, the world might be a niftyer place.
best man,
santiago
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